My Story

Growing up

Growing up, I always felt a form of disconnection from myself, in a way I didn’t fully understand at the time, but that quietly shaped how I moved through the world, how I related to others, and how safe I felt being fully seen as myself.

This feeling of unease and discomfort in my body slowly made me feel separated from others, and little by little, it led me to develop a form of social anxiety and a deep feeling of not belonging to my environment. My natural interests in psychology, astrology, healing, spirituality, and the deeper meaning of life made me feel ashamed of who I truly was, especially coming from a religious background. I started believing I was “too spiritual,” too different, so I learned to hide behind masks: the sweet and easy girl, the hopeless romantic, the version of myself I thought would feel more lovable and easier for the world to understand. And the further I moved away from my true self, the more unhappy and disconnected I became.

Most areas of my life stopped feeling aligned: my health struggled through hormonal imbalances and weight gain, my relationships reflected codependency and anxious attachment, and my career path felt deeply unfulfilling, no matter how many internships, jobs, or directions I explored. Underneath all of it, I carried this deep knowing that I was here for something bigger, and that curiosity slowly led me toward understanding myself more deeply and questioning why nothing external seemed to fulfill me in the way I hoped it would.

The awakening

That longing for something greater led me into what became my spiritual awakening in 2020.

After spending hours meditating alone on my bedroom floor, a question suddenly came to me that completely changed the course of my life:

What would you do if you weren’t afraid?

In that moment, I had a vision of myself acting on a stage, which led me to pursue acting for two years, but more importantly, it led me into the unraveling of so many identities, masks, and protective mechanisms I had built around myself for years.

For years, I stayed in what I now call the “spiritual closet,” carrying shame around the experiences I was having and what it meant to be on a spiritual path. I remember desperately searching for answers online, even reading Reddit threads about something called a “spiritual awakening” or a “dark night of the soul.” For the first time, I realized I wasn’t going crazy, that what I was experiencing had meaning, and that there were other people moving through similar transformations too.

Coming home to myself

Through meditation, breathwork, inner child work, emotional regulation and journaling, I slowly began healing the relationship I had with myself. And when I stopped abandoning myself, everything started to change. I came to peace with my relationship to substances, my relationship to people, and the parts of myself I had spent years shaming, hiding, rejecting, or trying to fix. I realized that so many of my coping mechanisms were never proof that I was broken, they were protective strategies created by a younger version of me who simply didn’t yet know how to feel safe being herself.

Healing, for me, was never about becoming perfect. It was about becoming honest. Learning how to sit with myself, love myself, regulate my nervous system, and stop leaving myself in order to feel accepted by others.

Healing in community

One of the biggest turning points in my journey was realizing I didn’t have to do it all alone. Healing in community made the path softer. Being witnessed made the path gentler. Releasing the shame of being on a spiritual path allowed me to finally bring all parts of myself back together.

Why I created Birth Your Soul

This is why I created Birth Your Soul.

Because I know what it feels like to be in the in-between: to feel lost, different, overwhelmed, or like you are becoming someone you don’t fully understand yet. But I also know that change is possible, the path gets to be graceful, and you do not have to abandon yourself to become who you came here to be.